So feeling really good today.  Yesterday all I ate were saltines, but I still feel really gross because I had a lot of them.  But I am so proud.  I went out to the bar last night and still woke up at 6:30 to go for a 4 mile walk/run.  I haven't eaten anything yet today.  I want to try to start a fast but I dont want to binge later on.  How do you guys avoid binges?

Current Mood: optimistic

HI everyone, I am new here as a joined member, but I have been reading the postings for several months now.  It is so weird I feel as though I could hav written almost all of the postings.  They are all things I have said to myself a million times.  It is so nice to have a place where people understand eachother.  I like most of you started having a problem almost 8 years ago when I was a serious ballet dancer.  I was kicked out of my dance school because of my ED and I have struggled with my weight ever since.  I really am unhappy with how I currently look and I miss the control I used to have.  I am still a size 0 but I feel like a failure because 0's used to be so huge they would fall off me, and now they fit.  I really want to be healthy as I have heart problems and dont want to go back to the hospital but I so badly want to be the thinnest one in every room again.  It gives me a sense of power.  I am sure people know how I feel.  But now I am starting to take control again I feel better!

Current Mood: hopeful

I feel so gross right now.  I was really good yesterday too, I only at sushi all day and had coffee but I went out with my boyfriend and got really drunk off a couple glasses of wine.  Then, drunk I at a bunch of crackers.  Now not only am i hung over, but I also feel really fat.  I am so sick of set backs.  I have been trying all semester to loose weight, I have been trying to exercise more, but somehow the scale reads more.  I am so tired of this

Current Mood: frustrated

Last night I was doing so good.  All I ate all day was sushi and coffee and was feeling good.  I got so drunk off of 2 glasses of wine and a beer that I came home and at a ton a crackers.  Now I feel not only hungover but dissipointed.  I really feel like it is impossible for me to lose any weight.  I have been exercising a lot by running this semester but I have gained weight according to the scale.  It is hopeless

Current Mood: frustrated